Fly away

Another 3 hours then i will depart from Penang to Johor Bahru. I think this is the 13th or 14th times i step into a flight, travel all alone. A lot of the time the stewardess or workers there will ask me surprisingly 'nobody go with you?' ... hmmm... ya... not sure until when only i will no need to travel alone....

Happy Chinese New Year 2008 :)

I will be going back to Johor Bahru tonight for my vacation of Chinese New Year. Yeah.. finally i can take a rest after so many days of 'short of sleep' + 'work like hell' training. I will be off for 10 days, and come back here on 10th Feb.

I most probably going to meet LT this time. I dont want her to be alone at new year eve as she will not coming back to Penang. Therefore i invited her to have eve dinner with my family. I not sure what feeling will i have as i didnt meet her for so long time already. She said she gained a lot of weight, i hope not too too too bad la..

Unrealised facts

1. i have been using WLF as my football team name in Yahoo sport fantasy and Xperteleven game for almost 2 years

2. i have been using tortoise as my display pics for this blog since start on June 2006

3. i have been using tortoise in my MSN title for around 1.5 years, until people call me as "龟公" already

4. there are 11 emails in my private yahoo mailbox that i have never delete and read since 2 years ago

5. there is a SIM card in my drawer.... which will never be used.

Fatique

Now i am in office waiting my colleague to fetch me home. I am very tired and sleepy now, as i had consecutively only slept 4 hours for 2 days. Tonight i have meeting at 1am again, which mean i can only sleep for 4 hours again... tired ..... but luckily after friday i can take a good and long rest.

41岁了

今天作了一个测验，原来我真的很老了。。。。

http://mathsking.net/test/think.htm
[ 鑑定結果您的精神年齡41歲
與您實際年齡差14歲
幼稚度36％
成熟度68％
老化度47％ ]

一个人

一个人的房间
一个人的电脑
一个人的床
一个人的思绪
一个人的想念
一个人的梦
一个人的寂静
一个人的叹息
一个人的夜
一个人的心跳
一个人
一个人

Summons

This morning i went police station to get my summons. The Sargeant told me that i can pay my summons in police station later, made me think that this is a normal summons and relaxed for a day. But this evening when i looked at the summons again, only i found that the paper he gave me is not a summons, but a notice to attend court in March. This made me start to worry again. I believe that my case is still consider a mild even though the lady broken her leg, because she had already discharged and have nothing else injury. From the information i gathered, it is quite rare to hold someone license unless involved in a very serious incident. Therefore i think what i will get is fine for few hundreds with points deduction.

But, there is one guy that i really dont like the way he talk, keep scaring me that my license will be terminated. Shit, make me worry only....

Excellent Award

This morning i got an email saying that i had been awarded Operational Excellent Award in my department, with reason i had managed well local databases and ensured them align to corporate security requirement. The award sound great but in fact i dont know which level of the award is categorized in my company. There are few different level of awards or recognition in my company. However, i think this is the highest award i ever get since my work here. I felt a little happy actually, at least, my hardwork was rewarded. However, i hope that the award itself is not just a piece of paper or wood, i prefer a better way of appreciation like CASH! hehehe...

US people are really different, they always recognize employees hardwork. I never see my upper level managers ever praise our work here. They always think we work extra is 'normal' and 'we should do that as responsible employee'... This is my first time work with US people, and i get this remarkable award.

I think this is the proudest moment in company since my join. I think my name will be list in next department quarter meeting video.

By the way, the person i would to share my happiness most, is not here...

2007 Annual Dinner

Its annual dinner again. Seem one year can really just passed in an eye blink. As usual, we went eat, enjoy show, and took photoes. :)

And also as usual, i didnt strike the lucky draws

Heartless guy

I got LT's call this morning. Her voice was sound tired. Not sure is she taking well herself. But definitely better than me here, :). It was been quite some time i didnt contact with her. Ya, a little bit intentionally not to contact her. i thought this would help me slowly cast away my feel towards her, and i thought i did success. However, i was wrong. I felt sad again when i listened to her voice. I missed her so much. I realised that i still love her very much.

I always tell my friend that my heart is lost, and it most likely wont come back again. Living life without heart is just like a zombie, no target, no reason, no hope... i hate to stay at home, because i would miss her, because my room is so lonely, because my table is so messy, because everything here is just not right.

I love her, but she not loves me

Love, is just too high for me to reach; She, is just too far for me to seek....