珍惜自己的健康

最近发现现代人好像很多病痛，一个两个动不动就生病，有些更是严重到令人担心。。。

眼前的就有两个超级严重的。一个整天头痛呕吐，一个整天说自己不舒服，还担心以后不能生孩子了。。。 啊。。。 最糟糕的是两个都很固执，哄的骗的，软的硬的都试过，打死就是不肯看医生，都不知道要说什么了。。

我其实很不喜欢不懂得照顾自己，不珍惜自己健康的人。。。 四肢健全，能跑能跳的，就应该好好珍惜身体，享受人生。。。 像我要这样的基本的权利都没有的人，她们还真的是身在福中不知福啊。。。 希望她们身体真的没什么问题，开开心心的。。。 最好是我白操心了

A woman with baby

i told LT that i would woo her again if she coming back to Penang. However, she bluffed me that she has a son. I actually suspected she was bluffing me, but i still think about it seriously, and eventually i replied her that i dont mind. As usual she said i am crazy...

Anyway, from her way of talk i can feel that she doesnt like me until now. Ya, i know, she wont love me, no matter what i done... Maybe, i am just not a lovable guy.

离别，爱过的证据

也许是我多愁善感吧，看了几集局集，又有些许感触。。。

生活上的许多无奈，令许许多多原本应该美满的姻缘无疾而终。。。凡人的生命，即好比坟前跳舞，无论一生荣耀，或是一生潦倒，最终都会终结。。其中的爱，更是不在话下。。。两个人的差距，又岂是时间空间可以衡量的。。。永远，是真正的永远，抑或是天地一瞬间，又有谁能够承诺。。。心要离开，还爱不爱着对方，已不再重要。。。

人们喜爱桃花盛放，但又有多少人知道盛放之后，还有凋零。。。爱也是一样；有相聚时候的快乐，也要承受离别的痛苦。。。 桃花凋零，人们舍不得，话言匆匆，但这是它们的一生啊。。。一个人一辈子的付出，会不会对另一个人而言，亦是匆匆而以呢？

有多爱，离别就有多痛，这就是爱曾经存在的标记。。。越是痛，它越是存在。。。

心动，则意动法动。。。 如果真心相爱，心中所想的人，就能够感受得到。。。 若要他离别后一路逍遥，切记在他走的时候，不要望着他，不要呼唤他，也不要想着他，让他不能找到任何据点回头；既要离别，又何苦让他继续把心系在你身上，一辈子遗憾呢？ 。。。 我非常鄙视那些明明存心要走，却又声泪俱下，七情上面说着：“我爱你，可惜我不能和你在一起”。。。如果真的爱她，又为何要继续收起她的心，让她可能错过其他好姻缘呢？

Drive in Sleep

Last friday was too tired with teambuilding and then gathering in Bukit Mertajam. After came back from teambuilding i went to Tesco to have my dinner and bought convocation gift for Caroline. I reached Autocity around 9.30pm and passed Caroline her gift. We had around 30 minutes chat in car until she joined her friends in Roxbury. Glad to know her found a new boyfriend, a very handsome yet nice guy. Wish her all the best. I continued to BM later to join Klinsmann gathering. Well, it was a bit shocked me as there were 30+ people attended. We hang around until 12.30am and i drove back. I was too tired the day until i fall into sleep when driving on bridge. The moment i woke up the car was still moving at 90km/h speed and almost knocking cones placed at roadside. Luckily i able to turn my steering back in time to avoid accident. ==" i fallen into sleep another 2 times along coastal highway after that again, but luckily the car was moving safely on road. hehehe.... phew~ damn lucky

Carnival Water Park

My department had a teambuilding at Sg. Petani Carnival Water Park last friday. I think most of us had a lot of fun there. Anyway, it was very tiring for me. The thing i want to complain here are their food, they were damn salty and sucks.

Down syndrome

Suddenly i have a feeling want to go back JB, i mean permanently shift back and work there. I am kind of tired of life here, even though i have quite a lot of friends here. I do really hate to come back home here as the only activity i can do in home is online and work. I need someone caring me i think. My family is too far away. Sometime i have kind of feel that i am left behind and nobody will even notice if die inside my room. This is a hard decision to make though.

New opportunity

There are 3 people leaving my group. It seems that my group is really upseting most of us. In fact i do not feel my future in the group is good as well before this. The management is bad, job nature itself is bad, work load itself is also bad. To be frank, i do really feel leaving the group is a bright choice unless i going to stay in the group forever until retire. However, i start to change a little bit of my view today. As people moving out, i become one of the senior here. My job scope widen as i start to take over their jobs. I had been busy with my work for last 2 weeks. This is the first time i do feel i am "working" after 2 years here. I admit it is stress, but at least i feel no guilty anymore taking my salary.

Untitled

i called my junior few days ago. She is interests to know whether LT will come back penang after read my blog, and she asked me am i still loving her much. Well, i dont know how to answer her. Deeply in heart, LT is still the girl i want to be together the most. If one day in future there will be someone loving me, i hope she is the person. But in realistics is, i do looking for gf. I did approach girl (ST). I really confused, am i still qualified to say that i am loving her. Life always sucks, it will never goes as what we are hoping for. i not sure how many people in this world is living happily with the one they love most in their life, but i believe that most of the people are not. Even LT does come back, will i approach her again? i really dont know. I dont want to put her into dilemma again. I know that i did bother her too much ago.

Busy with work

Recently is busying with work. I not sure how much i can handle, but i am trying my best. I not sure is my personal problem, or the environment here has made me boring, i dont have any motivation in completing my taks. Feel like lost my way since long time ago.

Up and down

After few days of extremely good luck, bad luck haunts me this 2 days. Market share dropping, company share dropping, it seem like taking back all the things i gained. Everything is back to normal. This is what we call life right? Up and down, the only thing we have at the end might be only memory and experiences.