Down syndrome

Suddenly i have a feeling want to go back JB, i mean permanently shift back and work there. I am kind of tired of life here, even though i have quite a lot of friends here. I do really hate to come back home here as the only activity i can do in home is online and work. I need someone caring me i think. My family is too far away. Sometime i have kind of feel that i am left behind and nobody will even notice if die inside my room. This is a hard decision to make though.