Coming back?

LT told me today she is considering to come back Penang or moving to singapore. Well, I dont know why suddenly she think about to come back. It was been more than a year i didnt see her. In fact i feel its better for her to go Singapore than coming back, even though i hope so much to see her again. I really dont know what kind of feel i will have if i really meet her again one day. I buried everything about her deep in my heart, I am so afraid of dig it out again.