ML - An unpolished pearl

I knew ML 2 months ago, 8th or 9th February? i forgot about it.... Anyway, that was a dinner invited by LH (my ex-coursemate) to introduce some girls to me and Aric, sweat... well, its harmless to know more girls right? hehe.. However, Aric was stuck at work and absent.

There were 8 of us, me and LH, then the 6 girls he invited. Well, as an insurance agent, he explored USM a lot and get know a lot of students there. All the 6 girls are USM students (except 1 left USM a year ago to KL). We went to fetch them at Sg.Dua. As LH's car couldnt fit all the girls and so 2 of them were allocated into my car, May and ML. I didnt really check out their look properly that time, its quite unpolite and embarassing doing that for first meet. But May is quite fashion and extrovert comparing ML who wearing quite normal and quiet. We had some talk along the way to Tj.Tokong, which made the differences between them became significant.

LH introduced the rest of girls to me during dinner, CC, WL, Fern, and HL. Comparing the other 5 girls, ML is not outstanding. She is small size, quiet, and behaved. Only during the end of the dinner she came and sit in front of me and we talked a few words. I didnt really contact them after that except chat once a while with ML through messenger.

The second time i met ML again was last week, 2 months after first meet. I dated LH, ML for dinner, and LH brought Kelly (salute LH, plenty of resources, LOL). LH and Kelly talked most of the time, while me and ML listened. I sent ML home after the dinner as Kelly is living in Balik Pulau which is not on the same way. We had some talk along the way. The image she gave me is quite nice.

LH and other friends who busybody enough to know about the dinner buzz me a lot recently to court her. LH described me her characters and highly recommend her to me, LOL... By the way, I still not sure what to do yet. Maybe i need some time to pick up my courage again.

Well, i am not so desperate for girl

Is 26 yrs old crossing the final alert level for getting a girl friend? i not sure why but i keep on nagged by my friends recently to get a girl friend as soon as possible. They keep on introducing girls to me, or keep on encouraging me to court Miss A or Miss B or whatever girl who is single. Oh my god.... (-_-") even my junior far from Johor do the same thing to through messenger... arghhhhh....

Anyway, I am not really desperate for girl now as few years back. Maybe i had lost my confident in courting girl after so many times of failure; or maybe i had became more conservative in building relationship to protect myself.... isnt money a more reliable partner?

A pray for a baby

LT told me last night her sis, Audrey had delivered her first baby in US. However, the baby is suffering in ICU now as he is found lack of oxygen for his brain part after delivery, which is quite similar to the case i experienced during my birth. This is sad news for all of us, i think, as the chance for him to catch celebral palsy like me is significant.

They are not able to contact Audrey for some time as she never reply their mails and sms. I believe that she is just too sad and busying with her baby treatment, while try to keep herself alone to think of what she should do next. I dont know how to console LT, or maybe i dont need to. She is always strong, isnt she?

I very much understand how difficult for a parents to raise a celebral palsy baby. This remind me that how much of suffer my parents experienced to raise me up. Yet i cant really serve them nicely until now. They are aging. How long time more i need to use to get them a good daughter-in-law which they are long waited? how long time more i need to use to earn much enough money to send them touring around the world?

I even more understand how difficult to live as a celebral palsy patient in this world. I really hope that he will be alright, or at least, able to walk independently without any tool assistants. You will never know how much of shit i carrying in my life, its sucks! Every thing, life, work, study, friends, love, i may need to give double, tripple, or even more to get same result like others. What i can expect as i am in a losing position at the starts of everything? I dont want him to be like me, or worse, i hope he is the lucky one. US is well developed for its medical system, this should help, hopefully.

Lets pray....

Second Life

I get know about Second Life from company website. Their server are powered by my company processor. Basically SL is a virtual world. We can register and customize a avatar in there which representing ourselves. We can set our look in very detailed way. Eyes, nose, mouth, lips, hairs, body, hands, legs, cheek, chest, chin, ear, cloths, accessories... this make every individual in SL is unique. We can do everything inside just like what we doing everyday. Building, buying, selling, chatting, working... its simulate everything in actual life, while added a lot of fantasy element like fly, dont you want to fly in real life? now you can do it in your Second Life!

Below is me in SL, am I handsome? LOL

Private investigation in Ipoh

I went to Ipoh with kingfisher yesterday to for a mission - take photo of bean's gf.... hehehe.

After 27 yrs, Bean eventually found a gf, who is living near Ipoh. - Gopeng. Everyone is curious to know who the girl is. The early information we obtained was the girl is 22 yrs old and is a clerk.

We departed 11am from Juru and reach Ipoh around 1pm. After that we fetched Conney from her house, along with my little cute gf, Coey, haha. This poor little girl had fever the day before and still looked tired.

At 2pm, we met up Kenny at McD, then we started to trail Bean to Gopeng. At Gopeng, we parked our car one street away from the place he park his car. He walked here and there at corridor. We were worried he would notice us. There were 2 times he walked towards our direction and made us retreat our car immediately from there to other place, LOL. It was fun.

He then went up to the girl house and we only could wait down there. After 40 minutes of wait we surrendered. Furthermore Coey was cried as Kingfisher 'over joke' with her until she felt threaten. We then gave up and left Gopeng as we didnt know how long Bean was going to stay inside. We to Kampar for famous Bread Curry Chicken and then back to Ipoh to drop Coey.

At night, we had our dinner in Jusco and then drove around Ipoh to check out this one of the earliest established city in Malaysia. Just right before we wanted to leave Ipoh Bean called Kenny for dinner, along with her gf. LOL, we all thought we failed our mission.

Then me and Kingfisher appeared there as a coincidence, which we went to taiping for some tasks and then went Ipoh as we knew Kenny was there. He seem believed in our story. We took his gf photo and mission accomplished. His gf is fair and pretty, looks smart. He is a lucky guy now and we all wish him can secure this girl for the rest of his life.

We departed from Ipoh back to Penang around 10.30pm and reach around 12.30am. Exhausted.

相见离你太远，思念离我太近

I reading a book name "寂寞之歌" (aka Lonely) by 藤井树 (Hiyawu) which i borrowed from YS. There is a part about how his father courted his mom.

His father visited the shop owned by his grandma and his mom was helped there. His father approached his grandma and asked directly "I would like to know your daughter, do you mind to introduce her to me?" LOL... how straightforward this guy was.

What do you think his grandma would do? introduced? not introduced? LOL, the answer is neither of them. His grandma didnt hear his father request ... oh my god...

Then? .. I really salute this guy.. He made the request again! without any shame and worriness. This time his grandma heard him and answered "she is not my daughter"

Next? You cant believe it.. His father said "Thats great. You introduce her to me, if I marry her one day, i will reward you" .... Oh my. i feel dizzy.... Anyway, he able to get knew her name at the end. However he had to leave the place for work in other district.

After a year, his father came back during his break. He spent few days found the girl (the writer's mom), just to tell her "Sorry, I taken you photo last year when i first met you at the shop. I left this place for work for almost one year. Please forgive me because 相见离你太远，思念离我太近"

Ya, I believe, most of the girl would surrender. ...

相见离你太远，思念离我太近 - i experience the same situation a well. But, i will have no chance to tell her. LOL

F**k

Eveytime would only have sadness, angriness, disappointment... f**k... cant give me other thing?!

An aggressive move

I had decided to take an aggressive move on my financial plan. Instantly this move will make my immediate financial status becoming worse, but i believe the risk is worth as the return can be high if i able to withstand myself until end of July without anything significant happens which requiring money. Anyway, if the worst case happens, i may need to do something that i dont like to do ... Ya, i really hate to do that... i did it once few weeks ago, the feeling, is really sucks!

Parents Visit

My parents visited me from Johor last friday. They came to check out my life here while help me to do some cleaning in my room. On Saturday they bought me a new mattress. Then I brought them to Lunas for duck rice with Kenny and kingfisher. At night, i brought them to Queensbay mall for dinner. On sunday night, i brought them to seafood restaurant near my house here and there tesco for shopping. Well, sound little boring to them. But they was came to Penang several times before and already visited most places here. I asked Agnes to bring us around to hunt for delicous food but too bad she was not free on Sunday.

Anyway, hopefully i can earn more money in short time so my mom can no need to work anymore and i able to send them to have tour in other countries.

Heal the World

"Heal The World"
by Michael Jackson


There's A Place
InYour Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could Be Much Brighter Than Tomorrow

And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways To Get There
If You Care Enough For The Living
Make A Little Space Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That Cannot Lie
Love Is Strong It Only Cares For Joyful Giving

If We Try We Shall See
In This Bliss We Cannot Feel
Fear Or Dread We Stop Existing And Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love's Enough For Us Growing
So Make A Better World Make A Better World...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

And The Dream We Were Conceived In Will Reveal A Joyful Face
And The World We Once Believed In Will Shine Again In Grace
Then Why Do We Keep Strangling Life
Wound This Earth Crucify Its Soul
Though It's Plain To SeeThis World Is Heavenly
Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High
Let Our Spirits Never Die
In My Heart I Feel You Are All My Brothers

Create A World With No Fear
Together We'll Cry Happy Tears
See The Nations Turn Their Swords Into Plowshares

We Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough For The Living
Make A Little Space To Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

RM200k

I was really shocked last night when i know that IT having RM200k as her savings, while owning a loaned house which will be cleared in coming 3 years, and a small Perodua Kelisa, hehe... She only works as stewardess for 3 years, can you imaging how high their salary is?

I am wondering when i can get so much of money.

A name on net

KweiJang called me yesterday and he told me that i can actually search my name in google, ya, my actual name as printed on my IC. I was very surprised and wondered why my name was listed on net, because i never posted anything with that name. I searched through google with my nickname before and i found quite number of posts which i post previously on few forums.

This made me thought that he was bluffing me. I typed my name in google for verification and it really came back with few webpages which has my name appears. ==" They are all actually the information regarding my master research before, which published previously on IEEE, UTM, and intel.

But there was a page attracted me. My name was listed on a celcom webpage. By opening it i found that i was been listed to have a pen from celcom for first 100 customers who reload phone credit through MayBank2u. Unfortunately, the page was expired January last year! LOL

One more night

Another night, i missing LT so much.. feel want to hug her, want to kiss her so much... LOL... "i love you", only can whisper in my mind